Tonight I went out with my ex. We’ve been talking for a two days now. Nbd. Of course we have to keep it a
Secret so people don’t get mad at him because he has to “hate me”. Well I just got home about less than an hour ago and I’ve never been so happy and sad. We sat in his car for four hours just talking. He knows me more than anyone and he is always right. It’s one of the most painful things because I screwed up the relationship. I am a terribly person and I do hate myself for it. He sees past this and always cares. It’s been almost four years and the boy still cares. I argued he doesn’t but I was wrong. No one else I know would have put up with my shit for this long. Especially after what I did to him. I do not deserve his kindness. It’s really funny how things work out. I cried more tonight than I ever have in my life. Everything he said was so true and spot on. I cried even more when I had to admit to him he was right. I do know that he is the strongest and kindest man out there. I trust him with everything I have. I admit it, I fucked up because I was scared. He will always be right because he does know me and care. My other exes have nothing on him. My favorite part of tonight was each time I would cry he would wipe away my tears. There’s nothing that can take away the lessons I learned tonight. I wish I had saw things differently from the start. Maybe that could have helped me in the long run. People Come and go every day. I just hope he stays around. He told me tonight that the difference in us is that I care about him and his dad and he only cares about me and ally. I think he’s right again. I promised Greg I’d take Care of his son and keep him in line. I intend to do that. I also hope to make it up to him because I left when he needed me the most. I am a terrible person and will never forgive myself for that. I admit I was scared because he cared for me and no one else did. I do date “scum ballz” and should stop. I’m gonna work on me because that’s what I have to do. No one should care for years when that person doesn’t deserve it. Thanks for sticking around even when I didn’t know it
Is texting me and actually making me feel okay. Thank you. Apparently I’m not good enough for Scott but you’re making me feel alright.
I miss texting you. Okay. That’s it.
that is how I sound right now. This sucks so bad. I have no idea what to do. SCREW POLLEN AND PROM SHANANAGINS AND FOR WHAT I DID AFTER PROM. I don’t even like the titanic.
I can’t talk and some kid keeps trying to ask me out. I DON’T WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU. I DON’T WANT TO GO TO THE MOVIES WITH YOU. I DON’T WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU. JUST STOP. WE’RE FRIENDS. KEEP IT THAT WAY.